A Beautiful Bug...

Taydin and I were playing outside one afternoon and spotted this on our lightpost. At first I nearly flicked it off thinking it was a leaf but at closer glance I quickly realized it was not a leaf, but a bug!! At first I was completely grossed out since I nearly touched it, but as I began to really look at it I couldn't help but notice how beautiful this bug was! How well does that relate to so many of life's circumstances?! When we're first faced with something we think, theoretically speaking, oh gross!! Or, God why on earth would you allow me to go through this?! But as we get more time to reflect we realize how beautiful our situation was... or maybe not beautiful, but how much closer we are to God at the end of it... and that my friends is beautiful!

A Hot Cocoa kind of day

Snuggled up with a blanket, a good book, or maybe even homework... all make for a hot cocoa kind of day! Took this picture during the winter and just love the way I feel everytime I look at it!

Now what?

So I was in nursing school and without getting into a wicked long story that did not work out... so now what do I do?! I have thought about going back at some point and then again I have thought about changing my major to counseling and getting a Masters in that... mind you I have no degree as of yet, just a whole lot of credits!!

However, ever since December I have been a stay at home momma... and I LOVE IT!!!!! We are making some plans for the future, but that's currently a secret so for know it must stay that way... :/

Anyway.... I'm a stay at home momma and life is fantastic! I feel so torn as I know I should be contributing to the family and I have our entire married life, but now I feel like being home with our bugs is the most important thing! So do I wait to go to school until Taydin's in school?! Do I slowly finish a degree while I stay at home although it couldn't be nursing because that's not offered online with any of the colleges I attend... So my next thought is counseling. There is a two year program offered at our local community college and it's all online... PLUS my grants and scholarships would cover the cost! That's a big one!!

But here's my dilemma... my heart is still in nursing. Seeing my pt's faces in my head brings me back to nursing everytime... I loved it and I love them! Every tear I cried on ONC and every heartbreak I experienced was worth it for the sake of the amazing pt's....

So you can probably see somewhat why I am so confused. My hubby would like me to get back to work, but I really want to have an education and so I can do what I really love... but it just feels like it's going to take forever.... :/