I was ridiculed and made fun of something awful in elementary school; in middle school it only got worse. I went to a Christian school in hopes to escape the ridicule, but it only worsened. By my freshman year I was just plain sick and tired of being the "fat girl" in school that no guy ever wanted to date... ever!
I decided the battle was over. I was done being, "The fat kid!" So I slowly began running, changing my eating habits... more salads and less Dr. Pepper! I could knock down 6 Dr. Peppers and 4 ice cream cones in one sitting plus whatever else I had eaten or drank for that day. I realized the only person I had to blame for my health was myself. The only finger that could be pointed... was at me.
My Sophomore year there were real changes taking place and I was finally getting healthier. By this time I had lost about 30lbs. My husband even noticed me right before turning 16!
By my Junior year I was down another 15lbs and just continued to get healthier. I began to realize it wasn't about being fat or skinny... it was about being healthy or completely unhealthy.
By my Senior year I weighed between 115-120lbs and was down a whopping 65lbs!
Yes... in 8th grade I weighed 180lbs.
Not a number I am proud of, but that's exactly why I made the decision to change it!
To some 180 may not seem like a lot, but for a young girl in middle school who wasn't even 5 feet tall yet that was morbidly obese for my height and age.
I have battled my weight since the day I was born, but making the decision to control your food rather than allowing it to control you, is the reason I am not morbidly obese today.
All of this to say... My heart goes out more than you'll ever know to people who struggle with weight. My heart goes out, because I know that struggle. I know that battle every minute of... "What are they saying about me?" Or, "I know I shouldn't eat this, but it's really not going to make that big of a difference... right?" I still struggle... I struggle every single day. I struggle to make the right choices.. and I don't always! I am far from perfect and especially being pregnant... it's that much more of a struggle. But it's a battle worth fighting and I am WORTH IT! And so are YOU!
After this baby is born my goal is to weigh 125lbs on a good day and 130lbs on a, "I just want ice cream and cake," kind of day. I am without doubt that I can do it, and I will. I can't find the pictures of me from 8th grade, but what I will show you is what I accomplished.
Healthy is a life change... not a diet, fad, or the current trend. And it's life changing. I understand what you're going through... I know that fight. It's the same one I fight every single day... You are worth being healthy.
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